Thank you Jesse for your thoughtful and honest response, I also thank you for allowing me to share it here. I am sorry for my late posting of this I had some personal issues arise that had me away for a bit. But again, I do so appreciate that you took the time to share this with us! So many I know that read this can relate to you and your experience that is why I personally believe that the Internet and blogs such as this is a great venue for sharing personal stories and can be done so anonymously without repercussion while also helping others know they are not alone! Thank you ever so much!
My interest in wearing diapers began almost as soon as I was first potty trained at just over three years old. I remember always being a little jealous of my younger sisters who seemed to get more attention than I ever did. So maybe it was just that association with being younger and getting more attention that made me want to hang on to my wearing diapers but I really don’t know. As a teen and later an adult today, part of it is I want to take back my innocence and just be me without the day to day stresses that we have to deal with as we get older. It’s sort of an escape.
It has always seemed to me that girls had more fun than boys. So I spent my life just wishing I had been born a girl instead. I’m sure that’s why I eventually chose to see myself as a bABy girl rather than a boy.
About 99% of my baby time has been alone with my fantasies, but there have been two attempts at live play with another person. I just wrote about the first in my blog athttp://www.ABGirlJess.com. It was with my girlfriend when we were in second (and third) grades together. It was just basically rated G child play. But it was also my first “Baby play.”
The second time was a few months ago, My Aunt and I had plans to get together in person. I was really looking forward to it because it was going to be my first time live as a bABy with another person since I was a little kid (this time with real diapers and baby things). As the day approached the excitement continued to build and my fantasies were going wild. When the day finally arrived, I drove out to her house and once I arrived, discovered I could not do it. I could not let down my guard, become vulnerable, and be her bABy niece. I felt awful because I had disappointed my best friend. We spent a few hours together and had fun as two friends but there was no bABy time.
I guess I’m still a little bit intimidated by the idea of actually meeting anyone in person. After discussing what had happened that day at my aunt’s house, we came to the conclusion that I just tried to do too much too fast. It was a new experience for me to do it with someone else present. So I am just taking this whole thing slowly one step at a time. The good news is that we plan to try it again sometime and just go a step at a time.
anyone wanting to also share their experience here is welcome! Or if you would like a more private and intimate conversation please call I would love to hear from you!
mommie becca
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